Monday, January 3, 2011


About a year ago, when Mom's dementia behavior was starting to become especially puzzling, the logical part of my mind wondered 'I wonder what Mom is experiencing?'; is she seeing the same things that I am seeing, hearing the same things that I'm hearing, and how do the sensory inputs get processed in the dementia mind.

From Mom's language usage at the time, I felt that Mom's general '180 out' was being reflected in her language; when I was cold, Mom said it was hot, when she smelled something that used to be pleasurable, she'd day it stinks. In addition, things like hot food were 'really hot', cold things were 'too cold'.

I got to wondering, what if I could 'become Mom' for an hour, experience what she is experiencing, then 'come back' and 'become me' again, and report what I experienced?

Would I want to do it? Has anyone else wanted to do the same thing?

I would love to have that ability, as long as I could report accurately. The problem with 'becoming Mom' is that if I truly 'became Mom' I'd not report accurately, because, well, just because.

1 comment:

  1. I think it might be terrifying - to come back to "reality" and realize what their worlds were really like.

    But then again, I could be wrong... Maybe it is pleasant, and hazy...

    Either way, I think I don't really want to know. I guess that's part of my denial?